apparently christine asked me to update my blog (??), so here i am.

haha i hardly blog cos i keep my innermost feelings to myself, so there's not much i can say..

oh today i finally had the official feeling that school has started!! :) cos i went to the library to print stuff in the afternoon and it was really packed, esp the science library with 3728470 computer terminals but still a long queue.. was printing notes, tuts and stuff (yes finally) and reality sank in.

and guess what, i'm happy to be in school :D

ucl doesn't feel like a smu anymore:) yes, indeed it's a city campus, but the feeling's different! you don't get a shopping centre like plaza sing/raffles city/bugis junction right next to your school.. (firstly you can hardly find shopping centres here anyway) and the nearest shopping district, oxford street, is a comfortable distance away (around 15mins walk). also, i love the architecture around ucl esp the mainquad and main library area, where you feel so..exotic studying there:) it's a pleasant feeling. and the refreshing air! (minus the fact that it's starting to freeze now) though the lecture theatres and auditorium are more run down than singapore's, it's very old school and i like the feeling :)

okay enough praise for ucl. school + tutorials, deadlines have started so i guess i really have to settle down and spend time on a regular basis doing more readings and work. spanish just gave me a headache today though it was only the 2nd lesson. so many things to remember! >< i think it's always easier to continue something that you've had experience in, maybe that's why people stay in their comfort zone. i think i'm going to succumb to this statement by joining tkd instead of something new (it's the cheapest form of martial arts here and kendo is VIOLENT), though i secretly want to join table tennis and be a..paddler xD sometimes i wish i just continued jap, but i shall try to persevere in spanish.. hola! buenos dias! :)

i think there are perhaps a tad too many singaporeans here in ucl. it's a give and take i guess - at least i'll never be really lonely here cos there're always people around and it's a strong community, but perhaps they are all the people around me. i must reconsider why i came to london for, and work towards fulfilling that goal. i don't think i'm ever brave enough like eug to fly off to US alone in a completely new environment with completely new people. and i can remember what a senior told me during an orientation walk - that she was quite emo after settling in, cos that's when you realise that all the people around you are the only people that you have.

on a sidenote ben&jerry's 2 pints for 4 pounds at waitrose!! :D:D waiting for the chance to go buy it and eat<3 food's okay here but i'm afraid i'm spending too much and i miss healthier singaporean food dearly, esp my mum's cooking :( bought a weighing scale HAHA ><

planning to go paris during reading week (3 weeks away!! :O), and haven't officially decided if i should go back to sg in dec but probably not. no plans for dec yet tho, anyone up for travelling? :)
 

By Omer B. Washington

"Won't Go Home Without You"

haha i suddenly got the urge to blog after talking abt all the livejournal stuff with the tkd ppl.. realise i haven't been blogging for vlong! but im vslpy now! so shall cut short. basically,

im glad i went for sparex '09 tho it wasn't smooth sailing all along and thanks for caring ppl! esp my beloved j1 daughters i would've had noone to bathe w if not for ya'll! :) n zhihao, jj for talking to me at nights:) and sam and gang for encouraging me dur the (only) 2.55 km run! >< i srsly needa go train up..so short but i was dying when i was running up a certain uphill slope i think near NIE. thanks for not overtaking me and encouraging me, even though the words of encouragement were "biscuits" and "breakfast" -.- haha but i needed them so thanks:) oh and jomain!! for being the nicest to lie on haha cos the others too skinny. and taking care of me tho i failed to take care of u frm injury im sorry:'( hope u're feeling better now! :) and j3s xy my yz for coming down to watch sparring! sry i was qdao cos i was v :( + :S sparring black belt leh:'( my mind was qblank the whole morn-.-

been having sparex withdrawal symptoms for the past 2 days..kept thinking abt all e sparex events even as i do other things haha. it's a bad habit of mine, it alw happens aft im like quite engaged in smth/someone for some time. good cos can reminisce but bad cos i cant conc on things im supp to do:/ meanwhile my instep continues to hurt and i discover more and more bruise every time i bathe each day  -_-" got a dark and ugly one on my left arm:( and my legs cannot count. haha but i kinda miss orh chehs! haven't had them for vlong cos of tkd..now im in the train tkd mood, but everyone is off mugging for blocks -.-

IM SLPY! but i dun wanna leave the mass convo w the tkd juniors:) they are so nice haha. ok shit they have me on lj, cannot praise them too much. ahem. but yeah i din expect to get to know them well..gonna miss them when i go:( along with everything else singapore. :'(

jiayou for block test everyone! :) then we can train aft that:P
 

i have to remember these:

1. GIVE WAY to pedestrians ALL THE TIME esp at traffic lights turning right!
2. GIVE WAY to motorcyclists and cars when turning right!\
3. TURN OFF MY SIGNAL AFTER USE - 4 demerit points
4. not turn on the signal when im turning, only when going straight. what's worse, i turn it on when i'm turning, and stop it from dropping down so i'll jus spoil it in the end-.-
5. DO NOT ALMOST HIT THE RIGHT KERB when changing back to left lane cos i never look at where i'm going-.-
6. DO NOT change lane abruptly or move the steering wheel too much when changing lane
7. do not drive too slowly on a 70km/h rd -_-"
8. do not brake very early and slowly inch infront towards stationary cars on the road - drivers at the back will not like it-.-
9. do not do a wide turning when turning left
10. KEEP A SAFE FOLLOWING DISTANCE (as advertised by the bbdc bus) - see wheels for cars, see wheels + 2m of road for big vehicles

haha i bet these are not all, and they are only for on the road. in the circuit i still have many things to remember..which i shal remind myself another time. i think my instructor is exasperated at me sometimes for my inability to know which side to turn the steering wheel when reversing ><

test on a certain date! haha shall not say here IN CASE PPL GO AND OBSTRUCT MY WAY along my test route:P
 

last updated 7weeks ago..haha. i almost forgot abt its existence..

I've been working at a private company for the past 2 months. Close friends of mine should have heard me complaining about how I'm wasting my time doing an admin job as I don't really learn alot of new skills in my work unlike an internship. My job is more of doing the miscellanous tedious reports which involve mere typing, summing, filing, copying etc that, I like to say, even a 3 year old is capable of. Of course, like many others, I'm working for the pay.

However, I actually think my job deserves more credit than this. Though it has not improved my communication and other skills, one aspect that is invaluable is the experience I have gained, things I have seen. No, I'm not trying to promote my job or my company here, but just typing what I feel. As part of my jobscope, not only do I get to experience the most basic office setting - how inter and intra-company phones are like, how much paperwork has to be done for every single thing and the hierarchy of an office, I also get to have first hand experience communicating with the construction and workshop workers! Out of which many are foreigh workers and do not have a very good grasp of English. It's funny that what cheers me up is not talking to my colleagues (other than my 3 other friends working together with me) but talking to these workers including our van driver Kumar. We took a photo with him by the van in our school uniforms this morning :)

I also get to learn about the construction industry, including diesel and get to know purchasing, accounting etc. I learnt the difference between an excavator and a shovel :D

Nevertheless, this job has also made me see one thing very clearly: I don't want an office job in the future. As I'm sitting upstairs which happens to be nearer to the higher ranked employees and the boss, I get to witness office politics..not that the rest of the employees downstairs don't engage in it, but I hear it rom a different perspective here. Sometimes as I unintentionally and inevitably eavesdrop on conversations between people (because upstairs is pin-drop quiet), I feel like I'm still a little kid who hasn't grown up and is suddenly exposed to the ugly side of the world. That people whom I thought were nice maybe weren't that nice after all. That no one can be trusted other than yourself.. and that the happily ever after we have been fed with since young was just a deception. I know this sounds dumb but the feeling is especially strong today, maybe because I was wearing the school uniform. I don't like adults (no offence, really)..and I don't wish to grow up. I don't want to lose the child in me, together with my compassion for others as well as raw feelings. It's like it's actually possible for people to feel nothing other than indifference and anger, and lose the ability to appreciate what is around them, to be genuine and sincere. I don't want that.

I know this is easy to say but hard to materialize as like what most say, if I don't want to work in an office what else can I work as? I've always wanted to work as a teacher when I was young, then dismissed it as a mere phase little children go through, but I am re-considering it now. I know it won't be easy too, and I should probably first get some first hand experience at teaching before making up my mind. Considered studying at NIE (since it's so near my house) instead of other universities, but my mum told me not to specialize, which is true. If I really want to be a teacher in a future, I can always switch then.

Results are out tomorrow. Tomorrow. Haha, I haven't really felt nervous or anything, maybe a little excited (because it means I don't have to work), but now that I think about it, one day later I will either be crying or smiling now. Sigh.. I guess everyone is as anxious about it as I am.. will have to chiong applications right after getting back, provided I can make it. Alright don't worry, it's fixed anyway.

Haven't seen many of my classmates and schoolmates for a long time.. I'll finally have the chance tomorrow! :) I just hope that all my friends and I will do well together so that no one feels guilty for being happy. All the best everyone =)